Him:

 Being in English courses again has brought out the "stress relief" writer in me, and I find it funny that this piece comes right after my previous "don't give up"--to which I still believe no one should to a certain extent as long as it does not lead to enabled behaviors of other individuals.

Him:

He can be charming, kind, and manipulative like crazy. He can make you believe almost anything. He is happy until something goes awry and out of his domain. He’ll say anything to make you trust him. He is an addict addicted to “woe is me” when no one desires to enable him. He throws a punch, threatens a life, and tries to punish those who don’t agree in his way. He lies through his teeth that makes one question the truth, and shows no compassion when others have shown him nothing but compassion.
He has no grace, but instead has hidden an enemy smile through his manipulative ways. He makes you question what you have been told when you want to believe him. The truth comes out through his actions but the lies come out through his rhetoric reaction. 

“Don’t be deceived” is easier told than believed when others have been warned of his way.
Then it all comes to the end, he is enabled instead of healed, and cares neither what happens as long as he receives what he thinks without question is deserved of him. 

No consequences of law, just vain deception. 

Is he capable of better? 

Is not all capable of such character?
He believes himself above reproach and sees nothing that needs to be healed, and why should he when he is enabled to live no different than he lives now?
Although some hold to the hope of Devine intervention, and guidance might help him—he’ll neither seek it nor want it till he is enabled no more, helped no more, and brought into the light that saves all from damnation. 

He neither cares for you or me, but only seeks to gain till he can gain no more—but what’s his down fall?

His down fall is looking for satisfaction where no satisfaction can be found, but only pain and empty handed efforts are made. Hurt and pain draw close to him and he paints himself the victim. Soon the down fall leads into something crazy that will happen…no one will trust him.

Hold onto hope that it does not get that far, pray none-stop for the intervention, and forget not until his actions match his reactions. 

I believe in never giving up on others, even those deemed toxic, but I also believe in not enabling bad behavior. I believe in counseling, separation (in the rightful & godly way), and healing. I believe all should seek the best for others, but also know when it's unhealthy and to step away.

Sincerely, 

Mikki :)

Never Give Up

It is the battle of the lifetime right now...the final weeks of school are approaching and I am so ready for this semester to be over. I am more of the 8-week classes type of person, not so much 16-weeks, so by week 10 of classes--I considered myself out. I'll never give up though, no matter how bad I want to at times, and there is definitely a deep rooted reason for that to which I will share.

We're taught throughout our childhood, "never give up" when it comes to tying our shoe laces, to riding a bike, and many other fun activities children do growing up in. Creating an environment where kids never give up, but always get back up again and perseveres through struggles helps later down the road so in real life situations things can be worked through. Disagreements between loved ones, and maybe the fact that you didn't actually get into your dream college of choice. The struggles we as children during the training ground years helps us to respond to struggles in a healthy matter later down the road.

I was taught growing up not to give up, but to persevere through every trial and storm, and because of my Biblical beliefs this helped me to never give up. I was given up on several times growing up because of my stubbornness, I fought on my education and the fact that I did not actually want to learn to which I was told, "I give up on you, there is no point in teaching you!". I was given up on in many different life situations, and I cannot stress enough that it feels 10x worse to be given up on versus to give up.

I held tight to the one thing that never gave up on me--God. Something that I knew to be true growing up was the fact that God never gives up on us, so there is no point in giving up on ourselves no matter how much we may want to, and because of that lesson I learned to this day I refuse to give up no matter how badly I want to drop everything and move far away. There are times I want to give up on school and can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel, and there are times I want to give up on people but refuse to because I know how it feels to be given up on.

We are warned to drop the people who don't matter, and seek out the ones that do. I have been encouraged to do this a lot recently, but who am I to say this person does not matter?
I have been told to keep toxic people out of my life, and they don't have a right to be in my life. To a certain extent it might be better to drop a person from your life if they are causing you or your family physical or mental harm, but again who am I to say toxic people do not have a right to know me? Some will say this is very unhealthy, and maybe they're right, but I always remember that God never gives up on me so who am I give up on them?

My life should reflect Christ, not myself. So if that toxic person reaches out, they know I will respond because if God can forgive them and accept them into His kingdom--then I surely can show them God's love. With caution on the heart, but Christ directing the steps it is possible to never X someone from your life completely. With every passing day, a prayer can be said for that person people consider toxic, and kindness shown to them. Giving up on people has never really been an option to me, even though it may feel great to give up on them. Praying says you don't give up but want the best and brightest future for that person.

Giving up is not an option. Praying is an option. Showing Gods love when you want to show someone your right hook is an option. People are not worth giving up on by other people because we are not the rightful judges here, and only God can see the heart of man. So the option we have as God's children is to continuously prayer for others and shows them God's love and grace. That doesn't mean hang out with a bunch of foolish people who change your character (Proverbs 13:20), but it also doesn't mean pretend they don't exist either (Matt 22:37-40). We are called to show love no matter what, but never told to give up.

Giving up is not an option <3